Well, I did it. I finally got a query letter off my desk. And yeah, it’s not really as great as I thought it was going to be because:
a) I worried so much about the query letter that I forgot about my unpolished synopsis sitting in the corner that’s not ready to go out and, lo and behold, a lot of people are asking for both,
b) most agents I was looking at don’t accept snail mail so my beautiful letterhead and paper was benched for this game and there really isn’t anything quite like sealing an envelope and dropping it in a mailbox to feel monumentous,
c) the first two of three email queries I sent I did without any type of letterhead so if they like me I hope they don’t want to call or mail me anything because I forgot my contact info (though, thank goodness my email they do have), and
d) my email editor means its impossible to double space anything so I have a sneaking suspicion that my three queries will arrive looking like a crazy, spaced out mess and no one will take me seriously.
So, in short, I am an idiot. I accept it but wow, how I wanted to NOT be an idiot this one time. And as I sit here, worrying over my synopsis and my new idea nagging in the back of my mind, wearing my “inspiration antennae” hoping to sap every bit of creativity and productivity out of me, I just can’t get it out of my head. Idiot . . . .